It is important to say that this journey has nothing to do with "physical health" - though I may see rewards there as well. It is all about my mental state. I am a small 7 stone, having been 6 stone most of my life prior to building muscle in pole. I teach and train large numbers of hours a week. I need to try and retain my weight, if not make gains. It isn't about cutting out anything unhealthy as such, or avoiding fats or carbs or anything like that. I know that some foods that are not on the surface sugary have high sugar content too. I want to cut out chocolates, ice creams, cakes, pastries, sweets and the like first and foremost. I believe that if I cut these out I will have a much much lower sugar consumption. I also want to pay attention to the labels of anything else I eat and try and keep within the recommended daily sugar intake.
Monday to Friday went well. I had mostly boiled eggs and brown seedy bread for Breakfast - sometimes bacon too. Lunches and dinners were mostly fish, meat, vegetables, salad, cous cous and some cheese, some potatoes, some chips. My diet actually was overall healthier than normal. I had bad cravings but I carried lemon water around with me to keep my sweet tooth happy and had the odd homemade smoothie or small amounts of sugar from whole fruit. I was tired though, most of Thursday and Friday was spent sleeping. I would put it down to not eating enough but actually I wasn't particularly hungry. I ate and felt full and stayed full until the next meal. I'm going to presume this is just an initial reaction to cutting out sugar. I felt calm all week other than at times when I had particularly strong cravings.
This weekend hasn't been so good. I had two pain au chocolat for breakfast yesterday in a rush to get out of the house. Had a pastry for lunch. We ate out for dinner and I had a super sugary fruit cider. I didn't eat enough and nearly everything I had was unhealthy. My anxiety levels were not great. Sunday was much the same. I had a sugary cereal for breakfast. Then a late lunch of crisps and a sandwich. But before lunch my anxiety levels were through the roof. I started to have waves of panic again, my throat felt like it was closing up. I didn't drink enough water either, only around 250ml today (my usual amount is to aim for 2 litres). I slept all afternoon for the 4th day in a row. Though the last 2 days I put it down to not eating enough and having high sugar foods rather than any reaction to eating differently. I told myself I could have a little sometimes on weekends but honestly it hasn't worked.
I didn't think I would see much difference by eating little to no sugar but I felt calm until Saturday. I wanted to eat healthier and craved healthier foods. Although it was hard; I found I could ignore my cravings if I really wanted to. I did feel tired at times - but actually more awake than normal at others. Sleep felt refreshing though, unlike normal where I can't get enough but am still tired. I felt more energetic when teaching. I want to do more research. I want to sit and plan some meals. This is my task for tonight.